Monday, March 17, 2008

Longing for spring

It has been a long, long winter... in many ways for me.

I feel like I am beginning to come out of it. Finally.

A dear beloved teacher and friend crossed over to the next life, I was struck harshly with betrayal by a trusted friend who was like a sister, and others who joined in with her. The pain is less, yet the sad deep emptiness, and feeling of loss is lingering.

It took much more of a toll on me than I wanted to admit for a while. True, I gathered myself together and carried on. Yet my heart wasn't in it. I needed time out. So I have taken that time, hovered mostly in the background, allowing myself time to heal, even to the point of neglecting my own list on Yahoo groups *The Empowered Goddess*.

But I have now taken steps to regroup, adding other moderators and owners. Adding the other owners was the biggest step for me to take, after the betrayal. But doubly so a good one because of it. I want to trust others, and to have faith in my sisters. It is part of my belief that we can have community, without *power over* struggles. That we, Goddess women can join together, communicate, and grow in strength, wisdom, love, and all ways through sharing our strengths and weaknesses and allowing others to help us, and helping others when we can.

So, I have planted seeds of faith, hope, and sisterhood.

I long to see a fruitful harvest.

Green Blessings

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